Braver Than I Ever Thought

This post follows up well to yesterday’s I’ll never post. Because I truly thought I’d never have to do all the crazy, scary, way-out-of-my-comfort-zone things I’ve been since being “infertile”.

I’d have thought, I’ll never be able to do seven days straight of giving myself injections. I hate needles. But I’m happy with the effects they have on fighting infertility & I have the shot pin points to show I’ve done them each day this past week.

I’ll never be able or have to give blood multiple days in a week. I was scared, & I have the triple bruises to prove I survived.

I’ll never be able to grow six follicles {two to three of which we’re thinking are now mature}. Yep, did that & bloated enough to show.

I’ll never have to have an IUI.Yet here we are, on the afternoon before our first IUI.

What am I feeling? I don’t know. A million things ~ excited, nervous, happy, relieved, overwhelmed, a little scared of the unknown, scared of possible pain, scared of it not working, scared it works too well. And at the same time, I feel nothing~ too much in the zone or in a blur just trying to take it all in. All at once.

My parents are on their way into town for the NCSU football game tomorrow. {Jason has to go straight to work after he does his part, so Mom might also go with me tomorrow in case I’m too crampy to drive home.} So right now, I’m thinking about the vacuuming & cat litter clean-up that must be done. Sometimes, distraction from the serious, major, easy to over-think-&-be-overwhelmed-by topics is a very peaceful feeling.

What have you done that’s braver/stronger/more than you ever imagined you could do?

How awesome would this be if this is one of my last Infertile Friday posts?! That’s in my wildest, most lovely dreams.

10 comments

  1. Mrs. MidAtlantic says:

    What an exciting/nerve-wracking post!! I’ll be thinkIng about you this weekend. Prayers that everything goes wonderfully!!
    Mrs. MidAtlantic recently posted..Meet Me in St. Louis

  2. Mickie says:

    Good luck tomorrow! I never had much cramping from IUI, hopefully you won’t either. Once it was pretty uncomfortable but usually they are really good at it and make it pretty easy on you. Lay there awhile like they say afterwards and just relax.

  3. KH99 says:

    Good luck today! I’m hoping this is it for you! I don’t recall a lot of cramping either but definitely pamper yourself today. I do recall ovulation after the trigger to be rather intense. Again, good luck! Fingers and toes crossed.

  4. Michelle says:

    Best wishes! Most of my IUI’s felt like they were over before they started. The speculum was the worst part and then it was over. I’ll be thinking good thoughts for you!

  5. Linda says:

    Best of luck to you. I hope this is your last. Sending prayers your way. I had no cramping with any of my IUI’s either.

  6. Katie says:

    *HUGS X A BAJILLION*

  7. Sheila says:

    This is my first time to visit to your blog and reading this post made me so excited for you. Hope this really is your last Infertile Friday post.
    Sheila recently posted..CNA Certification

  8. Alena says:

    Hugs and prayers and wishes and positive thoughts!!!!!

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