A Tiny Little Bit Of a Broken Heart

It’s been a while since I shared much of a status on the kiddos. I share so much with photos & updates on FB & IG that this page gets a little dusty sometimes. But since y’all have been here with me since the very beginning figured I’d share what’s going on.

Let me preface this saying that Lucy is “fine”. We are confident in our pediatrician as well as pediatric cardiologist & trust what they’ve assured us. I KNOW, oh Lord how my heart hurts just thinking about children, my friends children, who have had literal heart break, that this could be oh so much worse. I am not trying to diminish that. But I’m still processing & this is how I process.

So a rewind. Tuesday week ago, Lucy & Zach had their 5yr old check up. We saw one of the main doctors in the practice, one we’ve seen before & that I’d always liked. Height & weight great (44″ & 48lb for L & 43″ & 43lb for Z). Hearing good. Eye sight good. Urine & bloodwork sample good. They passed their can you balance, say numbers, letters “test” fine.

Dr looked at eyes, ears, throat (check, check, check) & listened to their lungs & heart. At their hearts, he had them sit up & lay down & then later in the appointment listened again. I was kinda thinking hmmm? But also wrangling two keyed up 5y olds who’d just heard & realized they were each getting 4 shots, so I was a bit distracted.

After all was said & done, Dr told us that he heard murmurs in both their hearts, more severe in Lucy. And that he wanted us to take them to a pediatric cardiologist this summer. I was shocked. All their Dr appointments over last 5yrs & we were just hearing about this. He advise as hearts grow, things can change. He felt like it could be nothing, but that he recommended seeing a specialist.

They were a bit of a mess from four shots each & I was a bit of a mess stressing over “heart murmurs”, so we stayed home last Wednesday. I still have not googled it as I don’t want to know.

(We stayed in bed watching Netflix for way longer than usually acceptable still-in-bed time. But they were dressed though!)

Pediatric cardiologist office actually called Wed after they received the referral so I was glad I had time to take their call & make appointments. Lucy’s appointment was 6/13. (& Zach’s will be 6/26 & I’ll do an update post on his afterwards.)

So back story done. Here’s synopsis of Lucy’s appointment.

They took us back quick; did basic height/weight then showed us to our room. There Lucy put on a gown & had an EKG done of her heart. The nurse was amazing. Chatted & had Lucy happy & giggling then taught her how to be a statue for the testing.

Next the Dr & a training Dr came & listened to her heart. She told us they could hear 3 different murmurs but not to be alarmed that they’re “normal murmurs of childhood”. For that I was thinkful & honestly we didn’t ask questions. We were happy to hear “normal”. I now want to know what is normal & do all kids have these or is it like badish but still within “normal” range?!

She still wanted to do heart ultrasound so into that room we went. (That room, all the way down to the warmed up gel, brought back so many babies doctor appointment memories for both Jason & I!) Lucy was happy all through the ultrasound because they had Netflix Trolls playing on a TV above her head! (Thank goodness.)

I, on the other hand, thought to myself, this is taking way longer than it should for a “normal” heart. Jason came & sat down beside me & held my hand. I think he was thinking the same thing. Once she finished, we headed back to exam room which is where she told us that Lucy has a small hole in her heart.

A hole in her heart.

I know my face showed all the emotions I was trying to hold back. The cardiologist assured us it was very small hole. When she was born, one of the holes you’re born with just never fully closed. It was an incidental find in the ultrasound as it’s too small to make a murmur heard from stethoscope.

It’s not effecting her in any way. It’s not bad enough she wants surgery. She said it could close up on it’s own but usually if it was, it would have already done so. She wants to monitor it & see us back in 18-24 months. Lucy doesn’t have any medicine to take, no food restrictions, & no childhood activity restrictions.

She does have three things she can’t be or do due to possibility of blood clot or air bubble getting in through the hole. She can’t be an astronaut. She can’t be a fighter pilot (but she can fly in commercial airline). & she can’t deep sea scuba dive. So those are random. & probably not things she’d ever want to have as her career plans.

It’s jarring me still though to know that she does have these limitations (albeit crazy ones that the vast majority of people can’t or don’t want to do). I’m also jarred that my long hoped/prayed/dreamed/stressed over having daughter has had a heath issue pop up like this all the sudden, out of no where. Going into our preterm labor/delivery/NICU days, I had prepared my head & my heart for possible complications. At their 5yr check up after 5 yrs of (mostly) healthy kid life, I wasn’t prepared.

So this week, I’ve held them tighter, read just-one-more-book books way past bedtime, high fived & celebrated their little accomplishments realizing that things aren’t always as you thought. And that your sweet, silly, wild, crazy girl might just have a tiny little bit of a broken heart.

Cars 3: Nat’s Stats

I don’t know about y’all but a certain 5 year old boy (& his sister, & his Dad & his Mom) are getting very excited for June 16th. Because that’s the release date for Cars 3!

We’ve been re-watching Cars & Cars 2 these last couple weekends gearing up. & also Zach’s been pulling out all (what feels like 100+) of his Cars cars all over the den floor rolling & racing them around.

I got an email with a few “Nat’s Stats” about the upcoming film & the new characters that I thought I’d share with y’all.

NAT STATS Natalie Certain: By the Numbers Volume 1.0

Natalie Certain is a highly respected statistical analyst who knows her numbers. Book-smart and mathematically gifted, Certain is a fresh voice in the racing world. While she may earn top marks in her ability to evaluate a racer’s stats, she could be underestimating the importance of determination.

  • 4 Filmmakers added four characters to the film that were inspired by real NASCAR legends, Junior Johnson, Louise Smith, Wendell Scott, and Henry “Smokey” Yunick.
  • 5 Five key areas in the southeast U.S. were visited to research the history of stock-car racing as well as the look and feel of racing in the area. Among these areas are Charlotte, North Carolina, where filmmakers spent time at the NASCAR museum, the Charlotte Motor Speedway, the Hendrick Motorsport facility, consultant Ray Evernham’s garage and voice talent Humpy Wheeler’s house; North Wilkesboro Speedway; Occoneechee State Park and Speedway; Daytona, where they saw the Daytona Superspeedway, Daytona Beach (where early races took place), Daytona 500 Museum; and the Sonoma Speedway, where filmmakers were invited to ride along with professional racecar drivers.
  • 16 “Cars 3” opens in U.S. theaters on June 16, 2017. 25 More than two dozen characters take part in the Crazy 8 demolition derby sequence, including Tbone, a car whose condition improves— temporarily—when he gets hit; SuperFly, who catches air; FareGame, the taxi who doesn’t get any fares; and Jimbo the pickup truck.
  • 50 Junior Johnson, NASCAR driver from the 1950s-60s who inspired “Cars 3” character Junior “Midnight” Moon, won 50 NASCAR races before retiring in 1966.
  • 95 Lightning McQueen still sports the dynamic #95 with his signature lightning-bolt graphics. The design of those graphics is a hybrid of his look from 2006’s “Cars” and his look in 2011’s “Cars 2.”
  • 616 “Cars 3” gets dirty, really dirty. And it turns out, dirt—particularly mud—isn’t easy to get right in an animated feature. Artists and technicians teamed up to get the look just right—not too thick, not too thin—which was important because mud, splatters, dust, sand and sacred dirt appear in 616 shots.
  • 656 Cruz Ramirez is a key character with a compelling and emotional story. In order to give her a dynamic range of motion and expressions, character riggers gave Cruz a total of 656 controls, including 360 for her body and 296 for her face—the mouth, lips, teeth and tongue have 216 controls alone.
  • 1949 NASCAR legend Louise Smith entered her first race in 1949, where she rolled her family’s new Ford coupe. Smith inspired “Cars 3” character Louise Barnstormer Nash.
  • 2015 NASCAR’s Wendell Scott, who inspired “Cars 3” character River Scott, was posthumously inducted into the NASCAR Hall of Fame in 2015.
  • 60,000 The render farm being utilized to render “Cars 3” runs more than 60,000 cores. Memory has been upgraded recently, bringing the average per core to 10 gigabytes, compared to the 4 gigabytes per core recently used for “Inside Out”.

Eek, I’m so excited!

Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Men Tell No Tales

Looking for high seas adventure this Memorial day weekend?! The latest Disney’s Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Men Tell No Tales comes out today.

It’s been a while since I saw the last ones but I believe this one takes off where the last ones left off. Dead Men Tell No Tales of course features the lovable mess of a pirate, Jack Sparrow played by Johnny Depp. This film features a couple new characters as well as brings back beloved ones from previous films.

“PIRATES OF THE CARIBBEAN: DEAD MEN TELL NO TALES”..The villainous Captain Salazar (Javier Bardem) pursues Jack Sparrow (Johnny Depp) as he searches for the trident used by Poseidon..Pictured L to R: Carina Smyth (Kaya Scodelario), Captain Jack Sparrow (Johnny Depp) and Henry Turner (Brenton Thwaites)..Ph: Film Frame..© Disney Enterprises, Inc. All Rights Reserved.

The focus is on the trio of Jack, Henry (a young sailor from the Royal navy who has ties to Jack) played by Brenton Thwaites, & Carina Smyth (a astronomer in a world where people think women astronomers are witches!) played by Kaya Scodelario. They must form an alliance to find the Trident of Poseidon to save themselves & their families.

I love a strong, brilliant female main role in a film & Carina is just that!

I’ve always liked Capt Barbossa played by Geoffrey Rush in the other Pirates of the Caribbean films & was happy to see him & his monkey back in Dead Men Tell No Tales!

The scariest parts of the film (in 3D no less) for me was the ghost sailors lead by Capt Salazar played by Javier Barden. The made me jump out of my seat a few times!

“PIRATES OF THE CARIBBEAN: DEAD MEN TELL NO TALES”..The villainous Captain Salazar (Javier Bardem) pursues Jack Sparrow (Johnny Depp) as he searches for the trident used by Poseidon..Pictured: Captain Salazar (Javier Bardem)..Ph: Film Frame..© Disney Enterprises, Inc. All Rights Reserved.

I think the PG-13 rating of this film would be what I’d stick with in terms of deciding whether or not to bring your children. For this one, keep kids at home with grandma & you, spouse & teens go enjoy the action of Dead Men Tell No Tales.

Here are a few kid’s crafts inspired by the movie to keep them occupied at home or after the film!

You can check out Disney Pirates for more photos & behind the scenes videos too.

Thanks to Walt Disney Studios for inviting me to the media preview this past week. While I appreciate seeing the film as a solo couple hours to myself, as always, my review is solely based on my own honest thoughts.

Five Minute Face

{side note, when I went to post this last Thursday afternoon, I realized my blog was broken. Turns out my theme had been unsupported for like 2 years. Who knew?! So new theme in process but trying to make sure posting now works!}
Back last year, I was able to get into the monthly Sephora box subscription. It had been years (like 4) since I’d regularly been applying make up, so I thought a $10 box of samples (with a how-to guide enclosed) might motivate me as well as introduce me to new products.
So here I am. About a year in & I’ve really enjoyed it. I smell better (thanks, sample perfumes)! And I now have a stocked purse make up bag, purse lip bag, an at-home make up bag & a travel make bag!
I’ve continued using my favorite for 10 years, Laura Mercier tinted moisturizer but I’ve added in primers, serums, eye creams, eye shadows, lots of mascaras, liners & even stepped my toes into the world of highlighters. Sometimes even for everyday.
Now listen, I’ll never be a YouTube beauty blogger, nor a big time beauty blogger. I’m firmly entrenched in my working Mommy on the go & always running late status. This means 95% of my make up applications are done in the car (at red lights!) or at my work cube. A product that’s quick, easy, mess-free & gets the job done wins my approval & meets my basic needs.
Last Thursday morning (aka 10am), once I’d had enough Diet Coke to really wake up, I did this 5 minute face. And I thought I’d share which products I love & used.
That’s from the top, NARS Velvet lip glide in Bound which I layered over pink Sephora lip stick.
Urban Decay Perversion mascara (which will occasionally smear a lil on oily days but OMGoodness my otherwise invisible lashes love it). See the difference?! Right with eye make up + mascara, left no mascara!
Glam Glow Glowstarter primer in nude (which I did a thicker layer of since I’d left my tinted moisturizer at home today).
Origins GinZing eye cream (my secret to minimizing puffy eyes from staying up til 1am watching 13 Reasons Why).
Laura Mercier Caviar eye colour in Rose Gold (I wear this all the time, takes .2 seconds to apply. This + mascara is my no-make up day make up).
Make Up Forever artist shadow in 1-544 (a great brownish, goldfish, pink color applied on bottom on lids).
& topped off with Honest Beauty lumizing powder in Midnight Reflection (free thank you with their Household box a couple months ago) as a highlighter on nose, around eyes.
(Top photos from Thursday morning, bottom at 4p)
That’s it.
What’s your busy day make up routine?

The Boss Baby

Suz's Treats Boss Baby

Lucy & Zach were so excited to go see The Boss Baby! This film opens in theaters today, but we were able to go a little early so we could tell y’all our thoughts.

Lucy Boss Baby

Can you tell she was excited?!

Zach & Lucy (age 4.75) both really enjoyed it!

Zach Boss Baby

I swear he was excited too

The film centers around imaginative 7 year old Tim Templeton (voiced by Miles Bakshi) & his family, who up until now has been him & his loving parents (Jimmy Kimmel & Lisa Kudrow).

Tim’s mother (voiced by Lisa Kudrow) and father (voiced by Jimmy Kimmel) introduce him to Boss Baby (voiced by Alec Baldwin) in DreamWorks Animation’s THE BOSS BABY. Photo Credit: DreamWorks Animation.

Now enter The Boss Baby! He wears a suit, he talks (voiced hilariously by Alec Baldwin) & Tim thinks something is up & plans to get to the bottom of the story.

(left-right) Tim (voiced by Miles Bakshi) discovers Boss Baby’s (voiced by Alec Baldwin) surprising secret in DreamWorks Animation’s THE BOSS BABY. Photo Credit: DreamWorks Animation.

Cue some crazy adventure & a sweet message about family.

(left-right) Boss Baby (voiced by Alec Baldwin) tries to convince Tim (voiced by Miles Bakshi) that they must cooperate in DreamWorks Animation’s THE BOSS BABY. Photo Credit: DreamWorks Animation.

Check out DreamWorks.com/thebossbaby for some cute videos, games & more about the characters.

Zach loved the adventurous ride the brothers went on & Lucy loved the Mommy & the puppies. There were many jokes in the film that were over L&Z’s heads (but none I felt were inappropriate for their age group). I heard just as much adult laughter from the movie crowd as I did kid laughter.

Zach & Lucy Boss Baby

And this week, they’re new favorite way to say bye to their daycare buddies, or hello to Daddy at dinner, is The Boss Baby handshake!

Zach & Daddy Boss Baby handshake(Also, don’t try to take non blurry photos while Z is trying to eat queso dip. Ha!)

Hope you have a great weekend planned. Anyone going to the movies?! I’d love to hear your thoughts on The Boss Baby too!

We were given tickets to see The Boss Baby but the generosity of 20th Century Fox & DreamWorks Animation did not sway the truthfulness of my post.